My Life's Soundtrack

The Soundtrack to my LifeSo, here's how it works:
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle/Random
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button

If my Life was a Movie...

Opening credits: The Reason (Hoobastank)
Waking up: Time That Is Left (Mark Shultz)
First day of school: The Christmas Shoes (Newsong)
Falling in love: Crawling Back To You (Backstreet Boys)
The Breakup: Living In America (Rent)
Prom: Made To Worship (Chris Tomlin)
Life's ok: Remember Me (Mark Shultz)
Breakdown: Someone's Watching Over Me (Hilary Duff)
Driving: What Was I Thinking? (Deirks Bentley)
The flashback: She Don't Tell Me To (Montgomery Gentry)
Getting back together: Jesus Lover of My Soul (Hillsong)
The wedding: All Who Are Thirsty (Kutless)
The sex scene: Paper Bag Princes (Hello Kelly)
Birth of a child: Light My Candle (Rent)
Final battle: Halloween (Rent)
Death scene: The Perfect Place (Hello Kelly)
Funeral song: Secret Ambition (Michael W. Smith)
Dance sequence: Living In America (Rent OS)
End credits: As Long As We've Got Each Other (Dusty Springfield) ... sounds like a good finishing note

The Future...

Is a scary thing when you don't know what is going to happen anymore. I don't think I've really ever been scared of what was going to happen because I usually had a good idea of what I wanted to do or what I was going to do. That is until a month ago. Over the last month I didn't care what was going to happen at first but as time kept going, I started to care again and wonder what was going to happen, then a couple of weeks ago, I was talking to a couple of friends at Celebrate Recovery, and they suggested that I look into doing what I know I do well and have been told that I do well... drama. Since then when I mention to people who ask what I'm thinking of doing, I've heard from half that I should go to college for it, and take something else as a minor for back-up. From the other half, I've heard that I should just keep my eyes open for now to see anything comes up for the BAC or anywhere else, and go to a agency when they post auditions in the area. I'd prefer to go that way since school is not my strongest area, and when I decided not to do Police Foundations, I vowed that I wouldn't try school again. On the other hand, drama is something that I really enjoy and want to learn about. Another option for a career is going to school for camp ministry, which is something that I think that I would enjoy but not really sure. Right now everything hangs on what happens next Friday before I can really start seriously considering anything, and then after that if I do decide to go to school it will be a year or so before I can go anyways, as I need to take care of a couple of matters first. So, this is the first time that I can remember of being worried/scared of the future cause I don't know whats going to happen or come my way anymore. Well, that's all for now.

And that's the way the cookie crumbles,

This is Captain Ooster signing off.

5 Years Later...

The picture on the left was obviously the one taken 5 years ago, and the one on the right was taken yesterday. Hard to believe that we have been friends for longer than that already. 6 years actually, but I honestly didn't think that I changed much in terms of looks, or looked older, but looking at these side by side, I see that I have. Not only our looks changed, but our friendship has too. It's hit many bumps in the road, but after a really rough spell this winter, we are closer now as friends then we have in awhile. I don't know, I think I like my current look better than when I was 16 almost 17. Well, that's all for now.

And that's the way the cookie crumbles,

This is Captain Ooster signing off.

Update from last nights post...

12 hours later and I'm feeling MUCH better. I couldn't sleep last night so I just read the Bible and prayed till I could sleep, plus I heard from friends and family and I know that there are many people out there praying already, and I appreciate it from everyone as well as their kind words, especially Wendie aka Steelo. :) I'm going back to my parents tomorrow and I know that I will have the same feelings of safety of talking to them as I do here at Tim and Nicoles. So, everywhere I look I see people there on the sidelines praying and supporting me. So thanks everyone, caue now I feel alot better about everything.

And that's the way the cookie crumbles,

This is Captain Ooster signing off.

GOD!!!! PLEASE HELP ME!!!!

WHY??? Ever since this morning I have been filled with such anger and hatred for both my ex and myself. I was made aware of a couple of other things that aren't true, and some of it is. I have never felt like this before and I'm scared of what I might do or become if I don't do something about this and if I don't have God's help. Please pray that I will let this go and move on. I'm going to Mosaic again which is a huge help because they are supportive and just help. Staying at Tim and Nicole's is helping too because it's taking my mind off of everything and I feel safe telling them what I'm feeling. And I'm going to a group called Celebrate Recovery at church starting next week, I knew that I should go, but now I know that I have to go. I haven't felt this close to God in so long and yet so far either. So, PLEASE, PLEASE pray for me. Thank you.

And that's the way the cookie crumbles,

This is Captain Ooster signing off.

Life Has Moved On

Well, 2 weeks later and life seemed to finally moved on last night. I read and heard a couple of things that finally made me realize tht what I was hoping for was never going to happen. And at first I was so pissed off and then I calmed down abit and figured that it's not worth thinking about it anymore, and for the first night since it ended that I slept all night and didn't dream of her. And then woke up and haven't really given much thought to what I felt every other morning. It's nice to be able to move more or less already. Anyways nothing else new to report right now, but I'll keep updating.

And that's the way the cookie crumbles,

This is Captain Ooster signing off