Really, really late update

Hey everyone, here it is. almost 4 months since my last update. Alot has happened in that time but don't worry, I'm not going to bore you with all of the nit-picky, but yet still very interesting details. Just to be cruel. lol. I've started a new job at Purolator. I've been there since the end of October and I enjoy it. Good hard physical labor is what I need. I'm on the AM dock so I work 3:30-7:30 Mon-Fri. I get to watch all the packages go by and take 99% of Perths stuff off and load them into my trucks. I'm also working on a musical now "Annie Get Your Gun" and now that, I'm LOVIN' IT!!!! Even the dancing is fun. Doing something outside of church plays and with a bit more of a challenge is nice. But I've moved... twice now, once with Tim and Nicole for abit and now I'm back out at my parents at their new place in Maitland. But I'm desperately seeking a place of my own, preferably cheap or better yet, room and board. So, if you know of ANYTHING let me know. ASAP. please... Other than that not much else is going on, sleep, work, sleep, play practice and back to sleep. But I will be back with more, I won't be going another 4 months without a word on here. You have my word.

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This is Captain Ooster for Eyewitness News Channel 7 signing off

I know I've Done This Before, But Want To See A Change AND I'm Bored

The Soundtrack to my Life



So, here's how it works:

1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)

2. Put it on shuffle/Random

3. Press play

4. For every question, type the song that's playing

5. When you go to a new question, press the next button



If my Life was a Movie...

Opening credits: Let The Music Heal Your Soul (Backstreet Boys, N'Sync and others)

Waking up: I Celebrate The Day (Relient K)

First day of school: Eulogy (Hello Kelly)

Falling in love: Famous One (Big Daddy Weave)

The Breakup: You're Beautiful (James Blunt)

Prom: Arm's of Love (Vineyard)

Life's ok: People Get Ready (Newsong)

Breakdown: Hero (Nickleback)

Driving: There Is Power In The Blood (Gaithers)

The flashback: You Are Good (Isreal and New Breed)

Getting back together: God of Wonders (Hillsong)

The wedding: What The World Will Never Take (Hillsong United)

The sex scene: You Are A Child of Mine (Mark Shultz)

Birth of a child: Under the Sea (The Little Mermaid)

Final battle: Give Us Clean Hands (Chris Tomlin)

Death scene: The Lord's Prayer (Michael W. Smith)

Funeral song: I Can Only Imagine (Mercy Me)

Dance sequence: Live Like Your Dying (Tim McGraw)

End credits: Into the West (Lord of the Rings: Return of the King)... sounds like an appropriate song to end on.

Well, Well, Well...

I know, I know, I know what your thinking... "It's been over a month since any posts have gone up" but what can I say? I've been busy for that month. Not only was I working full-time I was doing house renovations. BUT now, the house is done, up for sale finally, and I'm laid-off as of this past Friday, I'm going to finding new work hopefully tomorrow, although maybe Tuesday, good Lord willing. I don't really have alot of news really, hanging out with Tim here and there, and I hung out with Glenn from work a couple of times, played euchre and watched movies, and surprisingly enough, he introduced me to a young lady named Amanda. As it turns out, she's a Christian who goes to Open Door here in Brockville, and we talked for 4 hours last night, and she's really cool, and it was awesome talking to her, and that of course is my biggest news. He he. Anyways, just a quick update before having to head out for some people to do a viewing of the house. Anyways, that's all for now.

And that's the way the Cookie crumbles,

This is Captain Ooster for Eyewitness News Channel 7 signing off.

Update

This is just going to be a short entry as an "update". Nothing new has happened since my last update. I'm still working at Camalor and Kevin is still there. The only difference is that he is just getting stupider and pissing us off more and more every day. That's all that's new from before, but just to let everyone know, I am going to be staying at Tim's from tomorrow till next weekend sometime while Nicole is at camp. So, if you need to get ahold of me, send me an e-mail or call me there. Well, that's all for now.

And that's the way the cookie crumbles,

This is Captain Ooster for Eyewitness News Channel signing out.

SAFETY FIRST!!!! NO MATTER WHAT!

Well, here I sit after another shift at work, and I've got a few scratches on my torso, and cuts on both my thumbs. YET it's not my fault for any of them. First before I go any further, I'm going to say I really enjoy this job and have no intentions of quitting. As well as an explanation leading up to today so you will understand what I'm talking about. So far, every shift I've worked has been on the paint line, which is alot of fun, and easy... or so I think anyways. The parts that we have to put on and take off the line are not hard or dangerous... that is until today. I've basically worked with the same people on this, and one of them is one of the 18 year olds that I mentioned last week. This kid is dumber than dumb. Now onto the present. The part for today is "moving blades" which are very, very, VERY(get the point?) sharp on both sides. It's not hard taking them on or off, you just have to be careful. It started out easy today, but within 30 minutes of starting, the kid started saying he was bored. HOW CAN YOU BE BORED WHEN YOU ARE CONSTANTLY TRYING TO PUT PARTS ON A MOVING OBJECT? So, he basically stopped moving, so the shift manager, Joe, put him in charge of making sure they weren't interlocked when they came out of the washing machine, which means sitting there not looking. He actually enjoyed that. When the entire line was full and we started to unload, he joined in abit later after his other "job' was finished. Now, you should know that Joe told us that the most we should take off at one time is 2, and then put them into other hand and take 2 more, for the first several days we do it then we can try 3. This is for safety reasons. Well, the kid comes up and decides who knows what, maybe trying to impress us as we are all older and know what we are doing and how to be safe, or he was being a typical 18 year old where he doesn't listen and his way is right. Who knows. Well, he decideds he's going to take all 6 off at once. Well, he did it, but had the rack that they hang out swinging wildly. Standing on the other side of the same rack was Glenn, and it swung and missed his face by less than 2 inches, AND it had blades on that side still. Obviously we weren't impressed and told him to NEVER do that again. Does he listen? Take a guess. Less than 5 minutes later, he tries it again, and it barely misses me in the face. So, we told him that he really shouldn't because safety is the most important thing. Well, he went farther down to work, and we watched him. Well, half hour later, we are still taking them off (it's an hour and a half to load and the same to unload), and I was taking 2 off the rack, and he decides lets help them out and takes the other 4 off. Well, can you guess what happens next? The rack swung, and because I was taking 2 of them off and when it swung, I lost my grip on them and that put one of the cuts in my thumb. Of course, it will swing back, and they flew off and hit me. I didn't think they did anything, but at lunch I took a look and there were scratches left there from them. So, we told Joe and he said he'd watch him cause if he doesn't stop then he's finished at Camalor because he's not being safe. He only had a few moments to watch and he did everything right because he was being watched. So, he had been told sternly more times than I can count by me, Glenn who's 38, Peter who's 47, and Joe the manager. So, during lunch while Glenn was cooking his lunch, he heard him crying in the lunch room. Well, after lunch, he decides to take 6 off again, so he starts too. But we catch him, Glenn puts his finger on the rack to stop it from moving, I put my hand over the blades so he couldn't grab them and Peter was ready to grab his hands if he went for it. And Joe was watching, we told him that if we EVER catch him doing that again we will report him. So, he got upset and pushed Peter's and my hands away, and as you might recall, yet once again my hand was near blades, so it hit them and I got 4 or 5 cuts on my other thumb. Joe wasn't pleased, so he was to meet him after work, so I don't know what's going to happen. As Glenn said to me after he heard the crying, when safety is involved, if it takes 4 people to yell at you a hundred times before you understand, than it doesn't matter, because we are not willing to get hurt because of someone's stupidity. When he wasn't on the line, we were having great times, but as soon as he came on, we all were in rotten moods cause we had to watch him and throw him looks when he was about to do something stupid. Well, that's all for now.

And that's the way the cookie crumbles,

This is Captain Ooster signing off.

Finally... A Job

For starters, today was a really, really good day for me, which I didn't think would happen since today meant 2 months being single, but anyways, it was quite enjoyable. Anyways, onto the reason I am writing this entry. This afternoon at 1, Adecco called me to say that P&G are not taking on any more full-time employees, but there is a company, "Camalor" or something like that which is an actual guess unlike Tim in his most recent entry. So, they asked if I could work this afternoon, so I figured sure why not. They asked me to go to the office to watch the WHMIS video yet again, and do the stupid test and sign a couple of papers, THEN go to plant, which is in B&D. I said I couldn't do that cause dad wasn't home, and even if he wasn't off today, he'd be at work and no car. So, she said that she'd call me back in 20 minutes with more info. So, someone else called me at 1:30 and gave me more info, and asked if she could arrange a ride if I could then go to the office, so I said yes, which meant another 20 minute wait. At 2, yet someone else called asked where I lived, and she said she'd be there in 5, so, I finally got to the office at 2:2o, then had to watch the video and did all that stuff really quickly. I started my shift at 3, right on time. It was a fun, and quick shift. They put me and another guy, who says he's one of Ashley's exes, and 2 18 year olds, on the hardest job in the plant, which wasn't really that hard. Time flew by, and I don't feel tired, my feet are killing me like crazy. I wored Dad's work shoes and I've got blisters on both my big toes, but other than that it's just my ankle which I hurt a few years ago that hurt. I work 3-11 again tomorrow, and then starting next week, Tim and I are on the same shifts, 7-3 one week, then 3-11 the next. WITH WEEKENDS OFF!!!! What more could you ask for? Other than a desk job. :P Well, that's all for now.

And that's the way the cookie crumbles,

This is Captain Ooster signing off.

Isn't It Funny?

Isn't it funny how you can be having good days back to back to back. Not getting down anymore and feeling like life is good again, and then suddenly... BANG!!!!... You have a bad day? That's what happened to me today. I had a really, really good week. I finished painting my rom and put it back together in a way that I love, my 22nd birthday was on Saturday, and I saw Mike at the Wesleyn picnic, Tim and I went for a walk cause it was so nice out, got some work done around the house, and we played mini-golf which is something I didn't do for a couple of years, then watched Lord of the Rings: Fellowship of the Ring. As well as I got a sweet 4GB MP3 player as my gift. On Sunday, I went to Highway for Pastor Jason's last Sunday here in Brockville, and it was a good service and got to say good-bye to him and Robin. Then last couple of days I just did stuff that was fun, and then this morning I woke up and remembered that today is the 20th, and I just started to have a bad day. You might be wondering what's so important of the 20th... it's this.... 8 months ago I proposed to Ashley, which means that 4 months today was going to be the wedding day. I am very, very, very aware that it's my fault that it's not happening anymore, but still it's got me down, none the less. I'm hoping tomorrow will be a better day, but who knows. Just seems funny how certain feelings can make a day feel that's all. Well, that's all for now.

And that's the way the cookie crumbles,

This is Captain Ooster signing off

From Green To Red To Green Again...

As most of you that read my blog last year would remember that I decided to paint my room from green to red, and it turned really bright. Anyways, my parents are wanting to move just outside of town this summer and my room had to be painted a different color. So, last Tuesday, I decided to go back to green but a different shade of green. I emptied out my room on Saturday so my dad could take a brush with the ceiling paint around the edges to cover up any red that was left on it last year. Monday morning I woke up and got my bed and TV out of it and patched the holes from the stuff I had on the walls and put the plastic down. Then I started the first coat of primer and Lynne helped and after we had done it, it was clear that it needed a second coat. I decided to do it myself and I decided that was enough for one day. Tuesday, Tim came by and we did the walls and we got 2 coats done and were out the door by 11 am. Today, we started at 8:30 and didn't finish the final touch-ups till almost 4. It took 3 1/2 coats for the trim, so we did a coat then either played N64, or did some yard work then did the next coat. So, I put my room back together tonight and I like the set-up. Even got myself a love seat to watch TV on. Here are some pics for you to see the old green to red and then the red to this green. Well, that's all for now.

And that's the way the cookie crumbles,

This is Captain Ooster signing off.

My Life's Soundtrack

The Soundtrack to my LifeSo, here's how it works:
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle/Random
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button

If my Life was a Movie...

Opening credits: The Reason (Hoobastank)
Waking up: Time That Is Left (Mark Shultz)
First day of school: The Christmas Shoes (Newsong)
Falling in love: Crawling Back To You (Backstreet Boys)
The Breakup: Living In America (Rent)
Prom: Made To Worship (Chris Tomlin)
Life's ok: Remember Me (Mark Shultz)
Breakdown: Someone's Watching Over Me (Hilary Duff)
Driving: What Was I Thinking? (Deirks Bentley)
The flashback: She Don't Tell Me To (Montgomery Gentry)
Getting back together: Jesus Lover of My Soul (Hillsong)
The wedding: All Who Are Thirsty (Kutless)
The sex scene: Paper Bag Princes (Hello Kelly)
Birth of a child: Light My Candle (Rent)
Final battle: Halloween (Rent)
Death scene: The Perfect Place (Hello Kelly)
Funeral song: Secret Ambition (Michael W. Smith)
Dance sequence: Living In America (Rent OS)
End credits: As Long As We've Got Each Other (Dusty Springfield) ... sounds like a good finishing note

The Future...

Is a scary thing when you don't know what is going to happen anymore. I don't think I've really ever been scared of what was going to happen because I usually had a good idea of what I wanted to do or what I was going to do. That is until a month ago. Over the last month I didn't care what was going to happen at first but as time kept going, I started to care again and wonder what was going to happen, then a couple of weeks ago, I was talking to a couple of friends at Celebrate Recovery, and they suggested that I look into doing what I know I do well and have been told that I do well... drama. Since then when I mention to people who ask what I'm thinking of doing, I've heard from half that I should go to college for it, and take something else as a minor for back-up. From the other half, I've heard that I should just keep my eyes open for now to see anything comes up for the BAC or anywhere else, and go to a agency when they post auditions in the area. I'd prefer to go that way since school is not my strongest area, and when I decided not to do Police Foundations, I vowed that I wouldn't try school again. On the other hand, drama is something that I really enjoy and want to learn about. Another option for a career is going to school for camp ministry, which is something that I think that I would enjoy but not really sure. Right now everything hangs on what happens next Friday before I can really start seriously considering anything, and then after that if I do decide to go to school it will be a year or so before I can go anyways, as I need to take care of a couple of matters first. So, this is the first time that I can remember of being worried/scared of the future cause I don't know whats going to happen or come my way anymore. Well, that's all for now.

And that's the way the cookie crumbles,

This is Captain Ooster signing off.

5 Years Later...

The picture on the left was obviously the one taken 5 years ago, and the one on the right was taken yesterday. Hard to believe that we have been friends for longer than that already. 6 years actually, but I honestly didn't think that I changed much in terms of looks, or looked older, but looking at these side by side, I see that I have. Not only our looks changed, but our friendship has too. It's hit many bumps in the road, but after a really rough spell this winter, we are closer now as friends then we have in awhile. I don't know, I think I like my current look better than when I was 16 almost 17. Well, that's all for now.

And that's the way the cookie crumbles,

This is Captain Ooster signing off.

Update from last nights post...

12 hours later and I'm feeling MUCH better. I couldn't sleep last night so I just read the Bible and prayed till I could sleep, plus I heard from friends and family and I know that there are many people out there praying already, and I appreciate it from everyone as well as their kind words, especially Wendie aka Steelo. :) I'm going back to my parents tomorrow and I know that I will have the same feelings of safety of talking to them as I do here at Tim and Nicoles. So, everywhere I look I see people there on the sidelines praying and supporting me. So thanks everyone, caue now I feel alot better about everything.

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This is Captain Ooster signing off.

GOD!!!! PLEASE HELP ME!!!!

WHY??? Ever since this morning I have been filled with such anger and hatred for both my ex and myself. I was made aware of a couple of other things that aren't true, and some of it is. I have never felt like this before and I'm scared of what I might do or become if I don't do something about this and if I don't have God's help. Please pray that I will let this go and move on. I'm going to Mosaic again which is a huge help because they are supportive and just help. Staying at Tim and Nicole's is helping too because it's taking my mind off of everything and I feel safe telling them what I'm feeling. And I'm going to a group called Celebrate Recovery at church starting next week, I knew that I should go, but now I know that I have to go. I haven't felt this close to God in so long and yet so far either. So, PLEASE, PLEASE pray for me. Thank you.

And that's the way the cookie crumbles,

This is Captain Ooster signing off.

Life Has Moved On

Well, 2 weeks later and life seemed to finally moved on last night. I read and heard a couple of things that finally made me realize tht what I was hoping for was never going to happen. And at first I was so pissed off and then I calmed down abit and figured that it's not worth thinking about it anymore, and for the first night since it ended that I slept all night and didn't dream of her. And then woke up and haven't really given much thought to what I felt every other morning. It's nice to be able to move more or less already. Anyways nothing else new to report right now, but I'll keep updating.

And that's the way the cookie crumbles,

This is Captain Ooster signing off